Semester 2 exam
I had my exam one day after my last post. I hate the fact that the exam time is never enough for those exams that require lots of writing (essay/short answers). It’s writing all the way from start to end and sometimes it feels like if i pause to think, i’ll be losing my marks from not having enough time to finish answering. My right hand always feels abused after ever non-calculation exam. Anyhow, i felt a bit better about this sem’s final and although i knew that i was only 1 mark away from the next best grade when my results came out 3 weeks later i was still overall satisfied. Classes for my third sem started even before my results were out and because it’s sort of a short/summer semester, everything is squeezed into a much tighter packed semester. Bad news is that i have less time in between assignments and my up coming final exam is a week before chinese new year. cock!

Penang
I was over at Penang in one of the weekends after the long wait (I bought the ticket in July this year). To be honest there aint a whole lot more places to shop there compared to Kuching so most of the time i was just going places, looking for food. My top priority was the cendol (mission accomplished!) but other than that i got to try the indian ox tail soup, super delicious dim sum, prawn mee, loh mee, curry mee, lok-lok, some roti-canai look alike wrap with hot-dog and cheese, J. Co baby donuts, Winter Warmer afternoon tea, Char Siew Puff and Paddington HOP Pancakes!

Cendol

My last trip to Penang Hill was probably almost 20 years ago so it was great to be back there on this trip. The weather was perfect and we could not have gone at a better time (5pm sunset).

Bukit Bendera

Indeed i had the holiday withdrawal syndrome when i got back to Kuching 3 days later and im really looking forward to another trip somewhere. Only problem is that i practically have z-e-r-o leave…nada. Sigh…it’s especially hard having to see all those Airasia promotions almost every month and not able to plan a freaking trip. Case of got money also cannot go holiday. WTF!

Big THANK YOU to my friends in Penang who were very accommodating.

Work
S-U-C-K-S!

A lot of factors contributing to the fact that i getting very demotivated at work. In OB this sem, i came across this topic about motivation in an organization. Apparently there are many theories about motivation such as Maslow’s. Yeah it’s just a theory but it’s fking true because i can so relate to it. Really i’m not trying to be a fussy/fked up/over reacting employee and everyone knows there’s no perfect place to work.

However, at my current position in my department and the way the organization is structured,

1. My bosses will never know who’s doing the real work because they spend a whole lot of time away from us in the office. I once read somewhere “You’ll be surprise on how far you can go if you careless about recognition” and for a short time i tried to live by that motto but I’ve come to realize that it’s only true in a certain way. I mean, when everything is going right, when im trying to work my ass off to make sure things are going well, no ones really gives a damn. Ok fine i can live with that but once something goes wrong, it’s like all eyes are on me, grilling my ass over how did it happen. Another scenario, sometimes after a hectic morning working like a horse i go for my lunch break and i may take a slightly longer break (knowing that all the machines are running ok)…but any of my top superiors see me, they give me the ‘wtf are u still out here catching snake for’ look. In a way i cant fking blame them rite, they dont know who actually did the freaking work. So how? I’m not ‘recognition’ crazy but i believe personal development also relies alot on feedback and recognition. Feedback good or bad help and recognition (higher appraisal marks) motivates people to work but if your bosses don’t know who’s doing what in the first place, how are they gonna rate you based on individual performance. It’s sad to say that just few days ago, i was putting in some extra effort refurbishing some of the machine parts and few of my colleagues walked pass and said “Don’t need to do lah, do so much for what? Nobody sees what you are doing also”. At the end of the fiscal year, everyone gets almost the same pay rise/bonus even for those people who never put in any effort. How would the employee feel? So yea, the culture that has been around is “Why do so much? Got do or not also same” and 10 years down the road, everyone is not very far off in terms of personal development from where they started, no?

Who's who, doing what?

2. We all know there’s no place on earth that’s free from people that just plainly get on your nerves but amplifying to the first issue above, there are people who are experts in taking credits but never do anything. I know one who not only does exactly that but also a retard in prioritizing his work. Not tending to important machines that have broken down to do something extremely unimportant. So retarded that is like telling his wife who is in labour at home that he has to finish mowing the lawn first before taking her to the hospital, so retarded that is like him insisting on trying to finish brushing his teeth in a burning house.  Almost 99.9% of the time either he finds something unimportant to do or not do anything at all when there’s an important task at hand. Not only that, after everything, he claims credit for the work or at least act as if he done something in front of the bosses. Sadly again that’s how he climb the corporate ladder to where he is now.

And all the little other things regarding leave, duty on Saturdays, no office table, computer for us is enough for me to want to leave. I wont die there but i rather not be there. Of course there are wonderful colleagues there too who can make certain days less agonizing that it really is.

Semester 3
Im taking accounting and organization behaviors this sem but i only have one exam. The latter only requires me to submit two long assignments in which one is about scenarios related to organization behaviors such problems with communication, trust, motivation, employee behaviors, appraisal, empowerment , corporate culture etc. Maybe my problems mentioned above are, in a way blessings in disguise.

I admit, sometimes

There are times i feel like this part time study thing is such a burden and i feel like giving up but say what you say, i really do learn a whole lot of new interesting stuff foreign to my current discipline. Sides, no pain no gain.

END
I should end here. A too long of a post gets boring. Till then.

It didnt end there, after all the work was done, we had to move everything back. And today, im still not done. So much for tying to enjoy my last two weeks of ‘holiday’ before i start waking up super early everyday and getting paid for work. One plus side to all these though, i get to repaint, rearrange my room which i always love to do. Something i did without fail when i used to feel real sad after sending someone off.

New two tone

Studies are not great either. We started off the semester with problems with the lecturers and studying part time is so much different that full time. Leave out the obvious part that you only get like 10-13 classes per semester for each subject with each lasting 2 hours. The worst part is that the materials covered is no less than a full time course. It’s very much a self study thingy and im the worst person in the world when it comes to discipline. I feel kinda bad for the lecturer because we all expect everything to be taught. Now, there’s only one class left and i think still 30% of the syllabus yet to be covered. How?

For one subject, 20 hours, no kidding.

Even with the extra classes like the one today, it was frustrating at times not knowing what or how to do the assignment that weighs a whopping 40 fcking %. Its not rocket science but it requires super dedication and patience to read the books….and it’s due 18th May

…but then we got a special extension, must be the course convener pity us.

The subject covers all the method of decision making but a lot of it are statistics. Im lucky it was part of the engineering syllabus i did for my degree but i do feel for my classmates that aint from a accounting/engineering background. But that’s the way it is, we’re all familiar with different subjects and most probably a sales/marketing subject would be our achilles heel.

Im not raising the white flag, i mean, i know life is meaningless without the obstacles. It’s just, sigh…painful and stressful. Anyway, hopefully at then end of this it’ll bear a big fcking fruit…and it better be sweet!

Something like this

Tomorrow i start a new chapter of my life. Well, at least for getting some work experience. Guess it’ll be back to those familiar roads and roundabouts that i once travelled so frequently. It’s exciting and nervous at the same time that i really wanted to talk to someone about it. I know i have friends to call but i dont want to bother them about stupid complains. I wished i had the ‘ear’ i once had.

No escaping it

Also, i havent step foot at the gym for almost 3 weeks. Im still struggling to get over this shit im having now. Still, im praying and hoping for a rainbow after all these storms…

Where's my red orange yellow green blue indigo violet

I better go to bed. Definitely not good being late the first day and body aches from all the moving stuff up and down and up is killing me. Goodnight…

Sometimes i do wonder why can’t we wait beside the road. They can’t expect us to arrive right on time, just as soon as the people we’re picking up walk out the arrival hall. Yeah i know there is a car park but what’s wrong with waiting by the road. I mean, the road in front of the arrival hall is like 6 lanes and last night, it wasn’t packed at all. I would understand if the place was overflowing with cars and having people park by the road is obstructing the traffic. Sides, i parked so far away from the main entrance i was practically the only one there at that area. So what’s the freaking problem? Am i damaging state property (the road) because my car too heavy?

So f*king far away rite?

That’s not the end ok.

So since the police car was making a big fuss about me parking by the road, i drove off. I mean, ah-bu-den right? Can’t expect me to go down and debate with the already retarded driver. So i drove pass the main entrance and guess what, i saw this whole row of Mercs, BMWs parked right outside the door. I would understand if it was some short and fat minister’s car but the cars had local private plates on them…some more auntie drive. So? Drive good car to an chua? Why they don’t get chased away?

Behold...Kereta Tuhan...special privillages

What’s wrong with your own national car? Too malu to be seen in front of the entrance ka? Tolong la, police…you also drive…

Proton Buatan Malaysia

Still, not the end yet. Further up the road, i saw these two policeman with their flashing dildo LED light baton, whistling like crazy to chase off the cars by the road side. They would tell you “Owh……kalau saya bagi you park siniii……nanti semua orang mau park siniiii……ahh……macam mana?” Cb la, only 3 cars there…not like peak hour or what. Sides, not like all the drivers parked and left their cars >.<

Light saber

Seriously they were whistling like they were on ecstasy man. All those whistling and flashing lights (reminds me of soho strobe light haha), i’m thinking they shouldn’t be policemen la. More suitable be EUROOPEEEE style music DJ and mix songs like this one by DJ Alligator…

and the album cover would turn out…

Seriously though, i know the police have huge responsibilities catching bad guys and upholding the law and i appreciate that, but sometimes i just can’t understand them lah.

On another note, i have an interview this Wednesday morning. I dunno why, but somehow i’m always nervous when it comes to interviews…plus i’m still coughing :( I also really need start doing some revision for my online quiz that’s due next Monday. It’s been a while since i studied for a quiz/test so i kinda forgot how to. Lol. Therefore peeps…i better get onto it.

Adios amigos :) and remember to blow my whistle baby…! OOI, WHEN KHUI TUT?!!? Heehai