Checkpoint

My my my, how time files. Here we are 6 months into 2009 in the month of June. Fresh memories of the new year and great car rides in January are still lingering around in my mind. I think in someway, everybody hates to grow old but it’s a thing we have to go through and there’s nothing we can do about it. We always dream about defying one of the basic laws of life, to stop time – freezing moments in time only because we want an extra second, minute or hour. But does it really help, is it any good? Would it be better watching only just one movie scene, repeating over and over again like a broken record or do we want the chance to watch a number or different scenes?

Matter of fact is that our lives is no different than a DVD movie with individual chapters in it and just like a DVD player, there’s the play, stop, ffwd, rwd button. Only God has access to the play and stop button for when we are born and when we die, ffwd is out of our reach because we do not have the ability to predict the future. So it leaves us only with rwd and that, we can use.

We often reminisce about the past and whether it brings us laughter or sadness we usually still do it all the same, because it is an amazing thing and it is the core of our existence, what makes us, human. Imagine if we only had short term memory, only able to remember things at an instance, would we still be who we are? I understand now why early stage Alzheimer’s patients prefer to die rather than to live because living with a broken rwd button on the remote, isnt considered living at all, like a soulless flesh manupulated by a ventriloquist. Therefore for the rest of us, we should be thankful that our rwd button is still working. It’s definitely not a curse to be able to look back.

Who would be my 5?

A book i read made me realise that everything we do affects something else and all lives intersect. We always wonder why the good people get assassinated and the bad guys get to live, why bad things always happen to us, because we only look at the surface of the ocean and not what’s beneath it and it’s always possible that a good occurrence may come from a bad incident.

Checkpoint June:

1. Completed industrial training
2. Interviews
3. Got a job
4. Spike
5. Hospitals and clinics
6. Emo
7. Chivas
8. New people
9. Said goodbye

I have to do something.

“Lost love is still love. Life has to end, love doesn’t. Even if it takes a different form.”