Chaos

That’s all it has been for the past 2 weeks. It was as if my house was turned upside down because of some renovations that had to be done, all because of my current state of health. My house aint that big and imagine having to move all of the stuff from upstairs to downstairs. There was only like one lane of walkway around the house and we had no proper place to sleep, especially me. I didnt get to sleep well because of that and furthermore, i had to wake up early in the morning before the workers get here. Throughout the day, there’s not much space to sit and so i walk around helping out, occasionally just lying on the floor out of exhaustion. It was awful to look for things because everything is so ‘rojak-ed’ up in piles that it’s impossible to remember where did i put what. So thanks to that, my phone, ipod and notebook ran out of juice and it was a pain getting to my underwear.

It didnt end there, after all the work was done, we had to move everything back. And today, im still not done. So much for tying to enjoy my last two weeks of ‘holiday’ before i start waking up super early everyday and getting paid for work. One plus side to all these though, i get to repaint, rearrange my room which i always love to do. Something i did without fail when i used to feel real sad after sending someone off.

New two tone

Studies are not great either. We started off the semester with problems with the lecturers and studying part time is so much different that full time. Leave out the obvious part that you only get like 10-13 classes per semester for each subject with each lasting 2 hours. The worst part is that the materials covered is no less than a full time course. It’s very much a self study thingy and im the worst person in the world when it comes to discipline. I feel kinda bad for the lecturer because we all expect everything to be taught. Now, there’s only one class left and i think still 30% of the syllabus yet to be covered. How?

For one subject, 20 hours, no kidding.

Even with the extra classes like the one today, it was frustrating at times not knowing what or how to do the assignment that weighs a whopping 40 fcking %. Its not rocket science but it requires super dedication and patience to read the books….and it’s due 18th May

…but then we got a special extension, must be the course convener pity us.

The subject covers all the method of decision making but a lot of it are statistics. Im lucky it was part of the engineering syllabus i did for my degree but i do feel for my classmates that aint from a accounting/engineering background. But that’s the way it is, we’re all familiar with different subjects and most probably a sales/marketing subject would be our achilles heel.

Im not raising the white flag, i mean, i know life is meaningless without the obstacles. It’s just, sigh…painful and stressful. Anyway, hopefully at then end of this it’ll bear a big fcking fruit…and it better be sweet!

Something like this

Tomorrow i start a new chapter of my life. Well, at least for getting some work experience. Guess it’ll be back to those familiar roads and roundabouts that i once travelled so frequently. It’s exciting and nervous at the same time that i really wanted to talk to someone about it. I know i have friends to call but i dont want to bother them about stupid complains. I wished i had the ‘ear’ i once had.

No escaping it

Also, i havent step foot at the gym for almost 3 weeks. Im still struggling to get over this shit im having now. Still, im praying and hoping for a rainbow after all these storms…

Where's my red orange yellow green blue indigo violet

I better go to bed. Definitely not good being late the first day and body aches from all the moving stuff up and down and up is killing me. Goodnight…