Yesterday’s Promises

This was how it used to be…

I was watching the movie Babe on Astro today and it reminded me of the time when i fed the farm animals with you.

Look at me, i was just like any other kid there that day. So happy and excited. But it wasn’t just because i got to feed the cute cow…

It was because i was with you.

Everything was perfect. Nothing could come between us. It’s just like we could take off our slippers and walk off into the horizon, into the sunset, leaving everything behind us and we would still be fine.

I still can remember how it feels, knowing that you’ll always be there, that i will always have you, all our dreams and promises. All the joy and the comfort it brought.

But not anymore…

Gone are our dreams and promises. Just like all of it have been put on an airplane and taken far away from us…

I don’t know how to do this anymore. I’ve just been told i’m not the same person anymore, somehow changed. Yeah there will be times when i’m feeling ok but matter of fact is that, i know i’m different. I’m broken…

After all the years, after everything that we have shared together, you’ve been part of me, you still are and forever will be. Now that you’re gone, i am incomplete, just like a star missing one of it’s corners. It’s not very much a star anymore rite?

I don’t know what would the future hold, i don’t know what would happen. I say i’m moving on but…here i am writing this. People tell me there’s always tomorrow but it’s actually painful to have tomorrows because it hurts waking up feeling empty, knowing things are not the same. Gandhi said “Each night when i go to sleep, i die. And the next morning when i wake up, i am reborn”. I can’t do that, i can’t get reborn and start anew.

I pray you find true happiness wherever you are knowing you will always be loved.

Miss the warmth of your hands…

xoxo

“The very thought of you,

and i forget to do

the little ordinary things that everyone ought to do…”

~ I dont feel like sleeping tonight.