My last day at work is on the 25th of February.

9 months ago i joined the company for what would be my first real job and nothing could have prepared me for what i have came across in a real work environment…not with what i studied in uni or even not with the personal accounts of my fellow friends who have already joined the workforce. I must admit that at first i was naive because i expected for things that i could never get in a real work environment and that really got me struggling with the whole ‘work-life’ thing. For one, i couldn’t really understand and accept the fact that backstabbing, people taking credit for other people’s work and stubborn people boasting as if they are Einstein happens quite often at work. I allowed these issues to bother me emotionally and so i got very unhappy and dissatisfied at work…i was ready to walk away.

I think there are a lot of times throughout the year that can be marked as a new start, it doesn’t always need to be during the 1st of January. Therefore I don’t usually have any new year’s resolutions, no personal goals or target that i have to achieve for a particular year. I know it sounds bad but i feel that it’s better for me this way because having too much plans may sometimes lead to even more disappointments. No, it’s not that im afraid to face disappointments, i just prefer to set goals as i go along because a year can be quite a long time (well sometimes it feels that way) with a lot of uncertainties.

Anyway, I know i’ve neglected this blog for quite a while but just right after my last post, i started on a ’summer’ semester which was a lot shorter with more lectures and assignments in between. I’ve also been picking up pace at work because of increased orders and new equipments arriving at our doorstep, all brought on by the recovering economy. Then there were the Christmas and new year holidays. I only had time to sit down and take a breather after my 3rd semester’s final exam ended a week ago.

So, I did some changes to my blog layout as i got kinda bored with the old black theme. It felt dark and gloomy and brought on a sense of a sad, emo blog (i guess it was one but…oh well nvm). Hence the very white theme now. Sometimes change is good because it freshen things up although to be honest i don’t really know whether there would be anyone reading my blog anymore, thinking that ‘it’ has passed on :P

Anyhoo, this will be a short entry just to signify the return of my blog. Yeah there have been certain positive changes to my life since the end of last year in terms of my outlook on life and a career change that i would blog the next time around. I’m also running out of time because it’s Chinese New Year and i’m gonna be late for reunion dinner.

So Happy Chinese New Year everyone!! Have a blessed Tiger year. And no, don’t have any Chinese NEW YEAR resolutions ;)

My last post was a bit more than 5 weeks ago and i think it’s been the longest i went without writing something here. Anyway, it’s my blog and it’s never too late to write so here are some of the major events then happened during this period…

Semester 2 exam
I had my exam one day after my last post. I hate the fact that the exam time is never enough for those exams that require lots of writing (essay/short answers). It’s writing all the way from start to end and sometimes it feels like if i pause to think, i’ll be losing my marks from not having enough time to finish answering. My right hand always feels abused after ever non-calculation exam. Anyhow, i felt a bit better about this sem’s final and although i knew that i was only 1 mark away from the next best grade when my results came out 3 weeks later i was still overall satisfied. Classes for my third sem started even before my results were out and because it’s sort of a short/summer semester, everything is squeezed into a much tighter packed semester. Bad news is that i have less time in between assignments and my up coming final exam is a week before chinese new year. cock!

Penang
I was over at Penang in one of the weekends after the long wait (I bought the ticket in July this year). To be honest there aint a whole lot more places to shop there compared to Kuching so most of the time i was just going places, looking for food. My top priority was the cendol (mission accomplished!) but other than that i got to try the indian ox tail soup, super delicious dim sum, prawn mee, loh mee, curry mee, lok-lok, some roti-canai look alike wrap with hot-dog and cheese, J. Co baby donuts, Winter Warmer afternoon tea, Char Siew Puff and Paddington HOP Pancakes!

Cendol

I often take time out to browse photo blogs, especially the work of people like Ben Chrisman and Jenny Sun, inspires me greatly. It’s because of these beautiful moments frozen by great photographers that makes me wanna pick up my camera and set out on a aimless journey, just to take pictures.

*Photos copyright of Jenny Sun Photography (www.jennysunphotography.blogspot.com)

Do take a look at the slideshow of her latest work too. Simply gorgeous! Needless to say, Im gonna save lots and lots for my wedding photos, if i ever get married that is :P

As I gather my thoughts
With the pieces of my heart
Tell me, how long is forever
I’m not afraid and I won’t be torn apart
We’ve had our time together

I keep hoping, I keep hoping baby,
I’m gonna find a way
I keep hoping, I keep hoping baby
There are better days, better days
I keep hoping, hoping and praying
And I still believe in love
I keep hoping . . .

~Foreigners

Tryin to be funny

Super cool products always have super funky things written on the packaging.  That’s er…usually the case lah as I came across one today. Yeah!

andd….my freedom awaits me. just one more week.

I think it can be said that the mobile phone is one of the most relied gadget that we often overlook. I’ve found myself in disarray many times when i left my phone at home or accidentally have its battery run dry.

The 12 buttons that i express my feelings through

Anyway, i’ve been having my current phone for almost 2 years now and i think it has served me very well. Basically it has everything from a good screen, a superb camera, 3G, GPS and being a Nokia, it’s so freaking user friendly. However, at my most recent juncture, i need something to entertain me at work and although being the great phone it is, the N82 is not much of a entertainer, so to speak. So today, i’m packing it and having it sent off to a friend of mine who i know very well will continue to take care of it :P

It was down memory lane as i was clearing my text messages, pictures, sound clips and videos off my phone yesterday. I mean there’s no denying that our phone can be one of our most ‘personal’ belonging. I’ve texted happy messages, sad messages, taken crazy photos/videos, had  happy, sad, irritating, nervous conversations over it, listened to music with it and had it guide me around Bangkok. Without it, i would have also been late for exams and work many many times.

Helped immortalized the events in my life

I am a very sentimental, nostalgic person and it’s not just with this phone. It could be a receipt, a ticket, a book, an empty bottle or anything that was given to me by special people, it tickles my heart and can get me all emotional. lol

From the very first shake, till the last kiss, you have never failed me :P

and so for the last time……

thank you & au revoir.

Came across this yesterday,

“When deep injury is done to us,
we never recover until we forgive.
Forgiveness does not change the past,
but it does enlarged the future.”
~ Mary Karen Read

Life is a roller coaster, life is full of surprises,
be it good ones,
or bad.
Sometimes it finds us,
sometimes it’s the other way round…
There are time we need to be patient,
and times when we need to make the first move.
I realised having a good night,
is not always about being happy yourself,
because putting a smile on someone’s face,
or being happy for others,
might only be what it takes…
and tonight,
that was the case.
I might not be feeling right on top of the world now,
having the feeling that something’s still missing,
a void somewhere in me.
Nevertheless,
i try,
i hope,
and i pray for my hopes to stay alive,
that someday,
somewhere out there,
i’ll meet you,
and finally have
someone i know,
someone i love,
someone who feels the same,
and someone i wont feel awkward with,
standing in front of me…

Tomorrow is a brand new day.

Tonight was great, being with friends, being with people i know. Laughing till my cheeks hurt, seeing people i lost touch with. Despite the fact that maybe fate has it that it’s still not the right time for me, i know for sure that at least, i can go to bed tonight with a grin on my face, not that best smile but for tonight, a grin will do. :)

To my family, bradas and friends. For without whom, I’m nothing.

Goodnite!

Someday…

…where was i? I cant remember the last time i wrote about the happenings in my life. I guess my life was so dead that i didnt have any to write…sad rite?